Tuesday, September 21, 2010

september ICLW

Happy ICLW! For all of you new to my blog, welcome! To all of my regular visitors, I am glad to have you following :).

I am currently 5 weeks pregnant from IVF #2. We TTC for 20 months before we got our BFP. We did IVF #1 in December and it was a total BFN. I am (obviously) taking each day as it comes and praying that come May 2011 we actually have a baby to bring home from the hospital. So far, I am feeling pretty good. I have had heartburn from pretty much anything I eat and have even had a few bouts of nausea. I'm hoping to have morning sickness without throwing up, but I'll throw up every day for nine months if that's what it takes. I had three betas to ease my mind, with the most recent being done yesterday at 21dpo. My levels are doubling every 36 hours and yesterday's number was 2554. I am scheduled for an ultrasound next week. I must admit, I'm feeling pretty anxious. With IF we come to expect that the other shoe will drop at any moment and the fact that I'm not feeling completely miserable has me worried, despite the reassuring betas. I hate that IF has made me feel like a fake preggo because despite the fact that I can pee on a stick and make it come up with two lines, it still feels eerily unreal. I want to have my ultrasound tomorrow or some time this week so that I can be reassured that there is something growing inside me, but I'm trying to wait it out until next week when I am supposed to have it. Oh, and a confession, I feel like a real fatty because I am already in maternity jeans. I've been in loose fitting clothing since I started lupr.on because it makes me bloat up instantly. I lost a little bit of the bloat after egg retrieval, but I'm still "full" in my belly area. I feel like a fake because I'm barely pregnant, but I guess it's what I have to do and I'm just hoping that my belly continues to get bigger :).

9 comments:

  1. Happy ICLW. Good luck with the ultrasound!!

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  2. Seriously, I am just so thrilled for you!!! :-D I wish I could have been on your cycle with our first IUI, but its all good. Wasn't our time this round. Plus, I think I would've felt like an IF fraud had we actually gotten pregnant on IUI#1! I feel like we need to put in more time or something. Can't wait to hear about the u/s next week!!!

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  3. Maternity pants are the greatest. I don't know why all pants aren't just elastic! ;-)

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  4. No worries sweetie, I haven't fit into my pants since stims, so no worries! It just let's us dive in earlier :)

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  5. Congrats on the PG! I wish you a happy & healthy 9 months!

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  6. Happy ICLW and congrats! I'm 20 weeks along and I wish I could tell you the heartburn goes away but I'm still waiting for it to leave! Wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months! I have a diaper bag giveaway going on at my blog if you're interested!

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  7. I was anxious until the u/s too. And am nervous about the second. I think the worry continues. You're right, IF has a way of messing with us...even after we get good news!

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  8. Congratulations on the pregnancy!! I hope the u/s gives you a little more peace of mind but I know it is hard to really accept it after what you've gone through to get here! ICLW.

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  9. Congratulations on your BFP!!!

    It is horrible how IF can steal our joy and excitement from us, I hope your ultrasound goes well!!!

    ICLW #100

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