on our way!

Well, despite what I thought was going to happen, when I called the fertility clinic yesterday they let me know that I needed to begin birth control asap. I was on cycle day three. I wanted to ask her why no one called me back this past weekend even though I called with cycle day one, especially if I was supposed to start birth control. But, she's not the nicest nurse at the clinic, so I decided to just let it be. I'm sure they wouldn't let me cycle if it was too late to start the pills. Right?

The nurse barely had time to talk to me (which is kind of irritating), but I'm assuming that I'm going to do the long lupron protocol again as that's what I did my BFP cycle. I had to sign a cancellation form (agreeing to pay $400 if we cancel this cycle) and she said once she had that I would have a more finalized plan. I emailed that this morning, so now I'm just obsessively checking my email to see if she's responded. She did say, however, that she is almost certain I will have my ER/ET the first week of April. Which just so happens to be the first week I was going to be picking up extra hours at work. Whoops. Oh well. I'll still be able to make a little extra money in April, so I'm not going to grieve over those ten hours. The good thing about that timing is that it will fall right over Easter which means we will get to be with my family for that holiday! My mom is already planning on hiding eggs for Piper. Melt. my. heart.

Speaking of that little girl, she has been getting lots of extra snuggles the past few days as I am just in a funk. I'm so anxious over this next cycle. SOOOO anxious. I was so hopeful that this past cycle would work, that it's BFN is just making me doubt that I'll be able to get pregnant again. Which is actually kind of crazy. It's just that everyone tells you your body will be different after having a baby that I just kind of believed I was somehow magically cured and I'd be one of the lucky ones to get pregnant without medical intervention, or with very little intervention. I guess I'm just having a hard time accepting that we are doing IVF again. That we are headed down this path again. I'm desperately trying to remember what we did last time. When did I soak my feet? When did I eat the core of the pineapple? I just want to do those things again since I did get my BFP.

Oh, and since I am on BCP and we are going to be headed towards ER/ET sooner than I thought, I will have less time to get my booty in shape. Well, to be fair, I have been running and eating right since Piper was 7 weeks old, but that has led to very little weight loss. Now that I am hoping to be knocked up again soon, I am going to up the ante and try combining workouts with a high protein diet and hope I can drop 5lbs or so before I start injects (which will be in about 2.5-3 weeks). I guess that means I should get my butt up off this couch and start my workout!!

Have you ever tried a crazy diet? Do you regularly work out? What do you do to motivate yourself to work out?