Thursday, April 26, 2012
better each day
This week has been nothing short of crazy. MBL is out of town, actually out of the country, and it has left me in charge of absolutely everything. And, to top it off, I am fully in the swing of working 40 hours/week. Monday my hormones were still all out of whack from our IVF cycle and I ended up feeling like maybe I should go back on Zol.oft afterall. Tuesday was tough as well. I cried after I dropped Piper off at daycare and I wasn't sure I could make it through the day, let alone the entire week. As the day went on, however, I found myself feeling better moment by moment. The chat I had with MBL after work helped immensely. Basically, I feel at peace. I was praying for this and I was so certain I would never feel good again, but now that my hormones are leveling out, I'm feeling loads better. I feel like myself, only stronger. When MBL and I talked earlier this week, I told him that after all we've gone through to have our babies, I know we could face anything. And, it's true. As much as infertility sucks the big one, it has changed our marriage for the better. When WHEN we get pregnant again, I will seriously consider VBACing. I never thought I'd say that. NEVER. But, I would. And I would probably try to do a completely med-free birth. How does this relate to IF? Well, because of what we've gone through, I know that MBL would be a GREAT support for me if I chose that route. I KNOW that I could make it through because he would be there to help me. Just like he's been there through all the IF failures and setbacks. Just like he was there for me during the 8 hours of med free, Pito.cin induced labor I was in with Piper prior to my c-section.