So, today I'm mindlessly checking face.book and I notice a post on a friend's page from one of MBL's coworkers. This post mentions aversions to food and an ultrasound. Then it registers, "Holy crap, this coworker's wife is pregnant!" And then I immediately feel my stomach drop out of my body. Yes, this is a typical reaction to a pregnancy announcement for me, but what really upset me about this one? In November when MBL and I were going through our first IVF we were over at a friend's house and this coworker and his wife were there. When someone said something about them having kids her response was this, "Ick, babies!" The first word was actually more like a noise than an actual word, but she responded with pure disgust to the idea of having children and now she gets to be pregnant before me??? Seriously??? Gah!!
In other news, MBL is (was?) having cold feet about our shared risk decision. It makes sense because it is a huge financial decision and it is scary, but it will be a very temporary setback in our life and what is money without a family with whom to share it? I think he's feeling more settled about it now. But, reaching his understanding involved a minor meltdown on my part and a bit of frustration on his. Good thing I read the above face.book post after we had settled things, otherwise the meltdown may have been more dramatic.