Friday, July 16, 2010

I did it and then I did it AGAIN!

No, I'm not talking about babydancing! I'm talking about running. I have been putting it off, even though I had five days off in a row this week. The truth is I was afraid to get back out there again. In my prime I could run 5-7 miles without stopping and I was so afraid that after 10 months of hardly running (thank you, Clo.mid and other super-ovulation drugs) I would have to go back to the pace I kept in my early days...running sloooowly for 2 minutes, catching my runaway breath for two minutes and then back to the slow running, repeating for 2-3 miles. Well, as it turns out, I am not *that* out of shape. Yesterday was my first day back in the running sadle and I ran the first mile without stopping! YAY! Considering I am carrying around about 8 extra pounds (mostly on my backside--thanks, again, Clo.mid/fertility drugs), I considered that a grand success! I ran 3 miles with my cutie patootie beagle. I was up early this morning running various errands with MBL before he went to work and so I had plenty of energy to go for a run before it got too hot. So, beagle and I did 3 more miles! Another success! It just felt like with each step I took that I was reclaiming my life back from infertility. It has taken so much from me and I felt defiant as I finished those three miles (twice!). So, take that infertility!

On another note, is it odd that I am excited for my hysteroscopy next week? I am just so geeked to have two more things crossed off my shared risk to do list--lining check and normal uterine cavity. I should also be able to find out my AMH level at the appointment. I think my mom will be going with me since MBL can't get off of work and she is excited to be a part of it too! With this shared risk program it just feels like our dream of a pregnancy and taking home a baby are within our grasp!! Bring on the needles (again)!


  1. You sound fantastically upbeat and I am loving it!!! Try to keep that positivity! Congrats on the running. I want to work out again, but I got told to GAIN weight, AND I am about to start stims and am banned from anything physical. *sigh* I feel flabby. LOL.

  2. I think it's great you are taking care of yourself and loving it!! I wish I could run - I hate cardio work-outs. Spinning is about all I can tolerate, so I admire you.

    Keep it up and show infertility that you will not be knocked down!!

  3. Thank you for sharing your optimism! We could all use some of it and I definitely admire it. The hysteroscopy will bring you one step closer and that IS something to be excited about!

  4. Totally not odd! It's funny the things us girls get excited about once we hop on the fertility treatment wagon! I was totally excited about my lap and hyst and even more excited when I found out what problems I had to contend with! Haha. Weird huh. I just desperately didn't want the unexplained diagnosis so was excited with answers. Good luck!