Wednesday, November 3, 2010

thrilled to be here, but...

Now before I get started on this post, I want to make it clear that I know how unbelievably lucky I am to be pregnant. I know that so many of y'all are aching and waiting for your BFP. I remember what that was like and I do not take my pregnancy for granted, nor do I wish it away. That being said, I am floored by just how sick I have been. It's crazy! I started getting nauseous around 5 weeks with full blown all day dry heaving starting at 6 weeks. Around 9.5 weeks I started to feel a little better and after panicking, I decided to be thankful that the wicked nausea was going away. Well, it's partial absence lasted only a few days and now I am sicker than I have been all pregnancy. This weekend I actually had to leave work and then call in the next day. I haven't thrown up, but it's not for lack of trying. I've heaved and heaved, and nothing happens. I've been on Zof.ran since 6 weeks and I have no plans on stopping it any time soon. With my internship and my job I just cannot spend 8 hours a day on the bathroom floor (which is how it would be if I didn't take the Zof.ran). Starting Monday (11 weeks) new symptoms began and they are far from being fun. Let's just say that I went from not having any movement for 5-6 days to having far too much movement. It's making life a bit...awkward. My appetite has also increased exponentially...seriously, it's ridiculous! Here is what I have had to eat today:
4 small slices of cheese--I had these immediately after getting up
2 small pieces of bread with cream cheese--7:45am
1 cup of cheerios--9:00am
acti.via yogurt--10:30am
protein bar--11:15am
tostado and taco from be.ll--12:15pm
salad--also 12:15pm
a bit of trail mix--2:30pm
bag of popcorn--3:30pm

That's a lot of food and it's only 4:45pm!! And the thing is, I am trying to make healthy choices, but it's hard when I need to eat so frequently and I'm having aversions. At my last weigh in, I had put on 3.5 pounds, which isn't terrible for 11.5 weeks, but I'm afraid with my appetite that I'll balloon and end up with GD and a 13 pound baby. I had put on 10 pounds from all the IF treatments and before that I was already about 3 pounds over my ideal, so really I'm looking at already being 20 pounds over my ideal weight. I have an appointment with my OB tomorrow, so I'm hoping she can give me some healthy snack ideas and what I can do to tame the hunger beast. Although, I will say that yesterday I had to (seriously) ask MBL if he would still love me if I weighed 200 pounds...he said he would (good boy!). I just hope I can be healthy for our little bambino while still managing my symptoms well. Oh, and I'd love it if the food I did eat didn't fly through my body at warp speed. That's all.


  1. It sounds like you are having as rough of a time as I am. I am so, so sorry. I know how hard it is. I really do. Hang in there. And I have put on around 15 lbs, depending on the day and am on a Zofran pump. Supposedly it gets easier...HUGS. hang in there hon. Let me know if you want to chat.

  2. yucky. I hope you feel better very soon and that the second trimester brings you some relief (as it is supposed to). Good luck with your ob appt.

  3. I hate to say it - but in my case the appetite just increased. I seriously cannot keep up with how hungry I am. It is ridiculous.

  4. My m/s was horrible just like yours. And when I wasn't sick.sick.sick I was starving! But for me during my 2nd trimester my appetite decreased. The m/s didn't, unfortunately, but at least I didn't gain a whole bunch that trimester. Now that I'm in my 3rd I finally feel "normal".Hopefully your m/s goes away soon though and your OB can give you some suggestions. Mine suggested slow to eat things with fiber like apples.

  5. Oh you poor thing. I hate feeling nauseous. With all those aversions, just eat whatever you can. You can worry about the weight when you have a jogging pram in front of you.

  6. I never had the nauseous feeling but I did eat a lot in my first tri - things settled down in the start of my second and now my hunger is picking up again. I'm trying to eat right and just make smart choices.

    In my first tri my doctor told me to just eat what I could get to stay down, I needed the fuel. And drink LOTS and LOTS of water. So don't worry too much about what you're eating - if it works for now then it's fine. You can "fix" your eating later!