Wednesday, July 18, 2012

still here!!

I cannot believe how long I have gone without posting. Life is busy and when I sit down at night all I want to do is watch tv and veg out. I used to be able to pop on when I had downtime at work, but that hasn't happened a whole lot lately.

So here is the latest and greatest:

-MBL is still unemployed. I am pretty sure he thought he would get a job immediately and he is definitely an employee worth having, but we just haven't been able to find the right "in". It's pretty frustrating. We won't be able to continue like this for too much longer. I mean, we're fine for the moment, but if we want to move forward with any of our plans, we're going to need his income.

-We have some exciting and scary changes in our future. I have a job opportunity on the opposite side of the state and I am planning to pursue it seriously. I am terrified of this. I feel like so much of my life has changed lately that I'm kind of exhausted. But, it's an incredible opportunity to do what I really want to do. It would mean maintaining two residences as our house isn't ready for sale, so we would be looking at renting a townhouse and coming back to our home on the weekends to get it in sellable condition. We would probably do this for a year as that's likely how long it will take to finish all of our projects. Just typing all of this is making me exhausted.

-On the baby making front, we have been trying naturally but have had no luck. My luteal phase is shorter than it used to be and last month I didn't get a positive OPK until cycle day 19 and I still got AF on day 31. Which means that my luteal phase was only 11 days when it used to be 14-15. I don't know if my body is still all crazy from our last IVF or if it's just crazy from having a baby a year ago. Either way, I'm irritated that we thought MBL was the problem and now I'm beginning to wonder how much my body is contributing to our TTC woes.

-Also on the TTC front, we have our phone consult with CC.RM next week Monday. I'm looking forward to what they have to say about our situation and start really thinking about whether or not we should pursue treatments with them. We aren't in the best financial situation, but we're not in the worst either and one thing I'm sure of is that I AM READY. It's time for us to add another little one to our family and I'm ready to do whatever it takes to achieve that. I'm terrified out of my noggin, but I know that what you gain when you have success makes it so worth it.

I plan on participating in ICLW this month as we prepare to dive head first into further treatments. I also plan on coming back to post soon :).

How are y'all? Any news? How have you all been holding up in this heat?


  1. Wow, it sounds like there is a ton going on in your life right now, and I 100% hear you on just wanting to veg and watch tv.

    Good luck on the job opportunity. Change is always kind of nerve-wracking, but the chance to do what you really would love to do it HUGE. I am jealous of that opportunity!

    I hope the phone consult with CCRM goes well. It will be interesting to see if they suggest anything different or new.

  2. Oh wow! You have SO MUCH on your plate right now. I can't even imagine. I just hope and pray that the changes will be quick and for the better. That the new job for you works out, and that he finds better employment out by your new job, and the house sells quickly, and above all... that you get a frickin BFP already!!! I'm sorry your cycles are so messed up. I know that stress can do that to you, and you certainly have more than your share of stress lately... maybe your cycles will normalize as you make these positive changes??? I don't know, but I hope so. :) Good luck with everything! My biggest piece of news is that I finally have some ripe tomatoes in my garden! yay! Wish I had a bfp, but tomatoes are still pretty good. ;)